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A Word To Anorexia and Bulimia
Poem by Lisa Arndt
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It is hard watching as eating disorders get in the way of dreams, get in the way of plans, get in the way of moving on, get in the way of intimate relationships, get in the way of one's potential, destroy optimism, diminish talent, suffocate art, get in the way of one recognizing one's beauty.
And I can’t fucking do anything... so I wrote about it!
So, my precious website readers - my friends - this is for youÉ
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A Word To Anorexia and Bulimia:
I want to cut the water
You “let” her drink
“Let” her eat
I want to cut that water
Slice it silly
Make it squirm
Burn
Hurt
You ought to die
Be cut off and Broken
Belittled
You mother fucker
How you drown these girls
Take them in your arms
As if to cradleÉ
Promising of hugs
To never come
And then it’s a break
A hurdle
Fast forward to the finish line
Blurry lines
Boundary lines
Broken time
You eat at me grind my soul
Rip me Pull me
Asunder
Under
Fuck her
You don’t deserve her -
She is better
Legs spread
Because she believes she will get nothing better
And it’s you who have convinced her
Told her
She isn’t beautiful
When she is
Told her
She isn’t worthwhile
When she is
She is
God Dam you
Shun you
Shame on you
I fucking hate you
Making her hate herself
Making her doubt herself
She’ll ignore her insides for you
She’ll discount her instinct
She’ll do it all for you
Dancing until she passes out
And you will never come through
You will never reward
You will just punish
PUNISH
All the discipline all the anger all the punishment
None of the hugs none of the parental unconditional love
Not once
Not ever
But you’ll manage to still replace her parents
You’ll replace her friends
Who may not get it, may be ignorant
But at least they are fucking nice to her
You’ll never be nice to her
You will eat her up
At the same time telling her she eats too much
You ugly fat fuck
How can this be happening?
Why don’t you take the slimy boys?
The greasy ones who make uncomfortable eyes at everyone?
Why don’t you take them
Bend them
Break them
Tear gapping holes in their lives??
Why don’t you prey upon the murderers, the rapists
The thieves that will take anything as long as it’s free?
Why are you messing with the vulnerable?
The unknowing teens?
Are you such a weak fuck
you have to pick the ones already hurting?
Take those who give themselves to you willingly?
Are you not even up for a fight?
You misleading mother fucker, you have no taste
YOU DISGRACE.
Skinny didn’t win the race.
-Lisa Arndt, M.A. 13 August 2005 TRINITY COPYRTIGHT 2005
P.S. below, great new lyrics by Garbage you gotta read if you haven’t already!!
GARBAGE “Bleed Like Me” LYRICS
Avalanche is sullen and too thin
She starves herself to rid herself of sin
And the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin
And she says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Chris is all dressed up and acting coy
Painted like a brand new Christmas toy
He's trying to figure out if he's a girl or he's a boy
He says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Doodle takes dad's scissors to her skin
And when she does relief comes setting in
While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes
She sings:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Therapy is Speedie's brand new drug
Dancing with the devil's past has never been too fun
It's better off than trying to take a bullet from a gun
And she cries:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
JT gets all fucked up in some karaoke bar
After two drinks he's a loser after three drinks he's a star
Getting all nostalgic as he sings "I Will Survive"
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Just try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
As always, I thank you for your time ~ which is precious ~ and I'm honored that you spent it here, with me!!
Blessed Be.
