all you need to know is that this was written by a brilliant & beautiful fifteen year old guy who happens to struggle with eating disorder n.o.s.

C's Recovery Rap

Yo this feelin that I have is makin me deathly ill

and at times I choose to think it's not real

But the pain I feel

could kill superman

It's like it's killing me to be a man

Damn!

But then I stop and think to myself why do I feel this way

with this pain is it possible to live another day

so I go to bed prayin to the Lord to take me in my sleep

cuz the pain, the hurt, the agony - runs too deep

for me to begin to seek the light

which is nowhere in sight

and I'm scared to look for it

cause I'm surrounded

and it's pitch black

and I don't know where to attack - or defend

it's like my life is at its end, again and again

and it keeps spiraling down out of control

til I'm taken out of my flow and placed in recovery

But I'm a "G" - so I ain't goin with it

but my life's at a pivitol point

So here's my options

Sell drug, pimp hos', which all leads to the joint

Or jail - either way my life like this is goin straight to hell

and it's happen so fast I have no time to bail

But then I get stopped again and I'm told I don't have to get popped to be a man

That I can be a man without a gun in my hand

That I have talent and I can go places

and not get cuaght up stuck with the same faces

If I just sit down and touch bases

with reality - I'll find out that it doesn't suck to be me

that I can take a stand

and not jump on the band-wagon

just cuz my pants stay saggin'

then I feel the light is in sight

and I don't have to fight anything, everythings gonna be alright.

"C" 11-12-03

F i l t h y R i c h C o p y r i g h t 2003