ANOREXIA

I am shrinking

under the sheets again

My bones are surfacing

explaining my disease

they hide my need

because

I never need I never need

I'm running

through the halls

to be safe to be in my room

a race against time

how long has it been?

and how will I know if I ever win?

I already know

I never win I never win

because

I don't want, and I don't need

there is nothing here for me

I am small and light

and floating

I am free

my fat has fallen away

with all my greed

because

I never need I never need

The air shakes me

pushes me

to the ground

I am so much closer now

the promises

waken me

from a water tight sleep

believe me

I live in this

every day, a haze

for me to fight to see

no thank you

I say

because

I don't need

I never need I never ever need.

Lisa Arndt Copyright 1990