DURING ANOREXIA: Photo Album

hroughout my seven year battle I starved my body several times and sometimes my weight reflected this self-induced famine and sometimes it didn't. My mind was always effected, as was my daily life and my ability to experience joy. Ultimately I've learned that the pain that goes on internally is more powerful and crippling than any external pain that may or may not be noticeable to the unaware eye.

I want to take this moment to personally THANK my friends and lovers who endured a lot of worry and sadness while knowing me during these dreadful times. You all loved me so much and so well and I'm so sorry that I was unable to accept your love (I wouldn't "let" myself, I was so bent on self hatred). Without al of you I would have remained lost and would never had known how wonderful this life can be... especially when I get to share it with you!

love, Lisa

I added recently to this section, after I found some old photos.

Ultimately, the pictures can not describe the daily obsessive thoughts, painful self-consciousness and chronic self-doubt.

You must understand that having an eating disorder comes with such a high price, and you will, all of you, will find out that it's NOT WORTH IT.

trinity copyright 2005